Somewhere in the last few months it would be easy to categorize my emotions as saying that I just stopped caring.  I stopped caring what other people thought, I stopped caring what I thought about other people and I stopped getting so spun out about work and our schedule. I lump it all together as if it was all so easy but that's never the case.  It is as if I turned 36 and much like the year I turned 30 it was a fabulous year in so many ways and in other aspects truly awful.  The big girl panties I thought I was wearing no longer fit and I had to go up a size.  God, that is awful. I think the death of someone you love dearly, sudden or not, will do that to you.  The realization that your child isn't quite like all the others is another.  The added bonus and realization that … [Read more...]