Thanksgiving brought us to the Tot Trot nearby. TD was originally nervous and full of performance anxiety but H and I let her know that all she had to do was try her best. After all, that is what we did in the adult Turkey Trot earlier that morning. It wasn't about winning at all.Well, it's not always about winning, but sometimes it can be. When did she get so big? … [Read more...]
So here I am beginning week four in my Couch to 5k training and it hit me as I was out running on Saturday. I'm impatient. OK, I already knew that. I can be like a cat on meth when it comes to having patience. I really don't want to go many more months of fitting into larger sizes or making due with the few bigger clothes that I have. I want to be in my old size NOW. Spare me the, "You just had a baby!" cries. It's de-motivating. Back in 2007, after I birthed the Tiny Dicatator, I went on a month long journey of working out. For 30 days/4 weeks I would work out every day. It seems insane and I actually made it five weeks and eliminated sugar and alcohol during that time, but it worked. I'm not that nutty this time around. At the … [Read more...]
"So how is that whole depression thing going?" H asked this question a few weeks back regarding my past bouts with postpartum depression. Let's not quibble on his delivery of that line. Moving on... The Fifth Element has reached the six-week mark and I'm happy to report so far so good. Except. Well, except the fact that in the past PPD hasn't nailed me against its dark, stained wall until about the two month mark. With TD it was shortly after I went back to work and she was eight weeks old. The schedule, the commute, the lack of sleep all contributed to it. I thought I missed it with The Comedian and then month two came up and BAM! There I was again back in its black hole. Blech. As I said last week on TheMotherhood's postpartum discussion, I am waiting for the other shoe to … [Read more...]
That title can be viewed two ways. Literally.I went back to see my psychiatrist yesterday for the first time since mid-2009. Apparently once you have had postpartum depression two times you are "red-flagged" in the system and a social worker visits you while you are still in the hospital nursing and wearing mesh undies. That and they give you back your meds about thirty minutes after you push that new baby out. It is a month after The Fifth Element's arrival and I need a new script so it was back on the psych's couch for me. Aside from being tired I feel pretty good.I'm also back on the Couch to 5k program. I went for my first run on Sunday and it was glorious. I felt stiff, a bit wobbly and tense at first, but it was fantastic to be out in the … [Read more...]
The other night I had a dream. A fabulous dream. When I woke up, I felt happy and refreshed. What was this dream about? Running.It was all I did the entire duration of my dream and it wasn't from something scary. Instead, it was just one long run after another as I took in local scenery and running in places, I have never been. It felt so freeing. Sometimes, I was running while pregnant and other times I was back to my old self. No matter what I felt exhilarated. I cannot tell you how much I miss being out there. I look longing at other runners. When the weather is that perfect combination of sunny and just a bit cool outside I long for it even more. I am deeply jealous of H's freedom when he runs. Just like drinking it is another thing I cannot do right now.I tried to keep running. It was … [Read more...]
Clearly, I have issues. I realized this at two different times today. First, I yelled at the gym television that was playing Fox "news". I yelled, "Shut the F*ck up! You are so IGNORANT!" I mumbled something about "fallacies, bad research and fair and balanced my ass" when I realized that my right hand was extending and giving Fox the bird. It seems I have some built up testosterone in my system this week. The cold that has be flagging has also taken me away from any gym time. I didn't make it to kickboxing. I haven't gone on any runs either. The idea of Body Pump or Boxing is just laughable. I kept thinking if I just took it easy, as much as you can with two small kids, I would feel better. The. Cold. Is. Still. … [Read more...]
I had my first 10k this weekend. For so many months I have been training, then side-tracked, then training again, gearing up for the cold, dealing with my nerves and all this time fretting and fretting about my time. I was using this particular race to qualify me for RunDC next year. Then something happened.H found out about a work trip to Florida that I could accompany him on. One week in the middle of my least favorite month of the year, March. Sorry March birthday goers, but that lion/lamb thing just messes with my SAD-effected brain. The whole month is like a giant hangover to me. Kind of like how August is just one giant Sunday. Oh, is that just me? Back to the work trip then. A whole week of sunshine, time alone with H, … [Read more...]
So...I'm supposed to run this thing called a 10k in a few weeks. December 13 to be exact. A few weeks back this seemed like a fabulous idea. Then I got sick. The cold from hell descended on our humble abode and took all of us, minus TD, under. It was like some Kraken from the deep. Everyone got better except me. Two weeks later, still sick and crying from the sheer sick of being sick syndrome I headed to my local Urgent Care one night this week.Sinus Infection. No wonder I felt like my face was imploding, cracking and generally falling apart with pain. Throughout this time of plague I haven't been able to run. Weeks of no running have gone by. I got three miles in, maybe. There's been no cross-training, no training runs. No nothing. The coughing, the body aches, the lack of … [Read more...]
Saturday morning I ran seven miles. I've never run that far before, 6.2 being my longest run until then. I did better than I thought, only stopping to walk for a minute when I hit 6.5 miles. I just couldn't get over how tired my legs felt or how tight my hip flexors were becoming. Back in May when I began training for the 5k I thought 3.5 miles was far. I never thought I would want to run beyond that. I have always liked running, feeling that high and how cleansed my whole being feels after a good run. I just did quick 20-30 minute runs without any concept of my mileage or speed. It was purely for fun and as a form of exercise. Now here I am at seven miles. I didn't think that I could run for so long alone and like it. At about mile 5.5 this song by The Donna's, came on my iPod and it … [Read more...]
I'm still sore for session 71 of Body Pump yesterday. Even the tiny bones in my ankles are crying for mercy.I forgot to pack my underwear in my gym bag today. For reals y'all. I had to put my granny panties that I wear to the gym back on my just showered behind. Blech. I felt about eights ways of dirty afterwards.TD said, "I'm sorry for saying, "F*cking Comedian!" the other day." After I closed my gaping mouth with my hand I told her thank you. I'll spare you the lecture that occurred afterwards, including my chagrin and inward cringing.There are seven miles to be run this weekend. Yes, all at the same time. And you know what? I'm actually really excited about it. I know I'll be exhausted afterwards but it's so much fun getting out there even in the freezing rain that was last … [Read more...]