It was midnight. I had been in bed for two hours and still no sleep could be found. The house was dark and still but I tossed and turned. My mind a frenzy with negative thoughts that circled around like thick, black ropes. I climbed out of bed and went to the den downstairs to lay on the couch.I texted E. "Can you chat?" A few minutes later she responded. I had already spent a good half hour in the fetal position crying in the darkened den, feeling half crazed. I needed my best friend. Everything was too much. The house, the kids, the noise, the mess, everything. Days earlier I had gone balls to the wall insane (like Ms. Piggy karate-chop insane) on a pile of boxes that had taken up a month long residence in our bedroom. I was ready to … [Read more...]
Giving It Up For Holiday Sanity
Cross-posted and archived from DC Metro Moms. Original post date December 11, 2007.Each year I make a promise to myself and to my family that I won't over do it. I won't over book us in holiday get togethers, parties and more. There will be more peaceful moments at home and enjoying each others company and less harried messes, traffic and season excesses. Each year I fail. I fail miserably. Last year I failed so badly it resulted in a teary exodus by my parents and them claiming they never wanted to stay at our house again. If that is not failure right there I don't know what is. It's also a damn fine wake up call.This year the invitations rolled in and faster than I could imagine we were booked from just before Halloween through to the new year. Before the holiday season was even … [Read more...]
My Goody Drawer
I keep things hidden away in my nightstand. Things that no one in my house can have but me. In pretty wrappings, sometimes shiny and glistening, they beckon to me as they sit and wait until just the right moment when I open the draw and pull one out just for my pleasure.It's candy. I keep loads of candy in my nightstand. Ever since Claudia from the Baby Sitter's club gave me the clever idea of hiding junk food in my room I have done just that. I am like an old lady hoarding money under my mattress. Except in my case, it is probably a box of Good 'n Plenty. Wispa bars. Cadbury eggs. Chocolate bars loaded with crunchy bits of toffee. Dark chocolate bite-sized nuggets. Sometimes gum, but that is too boring. Now that I have embarked on this 'no sugar for a month' insanity, my "goody drawer" is … [Read more...]